FOR THE DREAMERS WHO KEEP ON DREAMING

I decided to start watching an online workshop around 10:30 last night and didn't stop until about 4:30 in the morning.  As much as I try to go to bed early, I have the attention span of a five year old and can quickly become easily distracted.  I'm still processing the amount of information I obtained.  It was about wedding photography, obvs, and I couldn't help but daydream where my business will take me in the next two, three, heck! even five years!  Shooting weddings.  For. A. Living.  I can't imagine the honor I would feel, just to have the privilege to document a wedding day.  That out of how many talented photographers out there, this couple chose me.  How can you even repay someone for that? Other than giving it your all, your heart and the best dang photos they can cherish for a lifetime.  Even if it doesn't happen.  Even if I fail, I will always know I at least tried.  I had a crazy idea, and I made it happen.  I let the world know.  I gave my dreams a shot, took a chance and had one heck of a crazy adventure.

This one's for the dreamers who keep on dreaming.

NKOTB

As I walked up to the doors I noticed the signs covering every window.  I couldn't help but feel like a small part of me was dying as a tear ran down my cheek.  ENTIRE STORE ON CLEARANCE.  EVERYTHING MUST GO.  I actually cried people!  If you didn't know this already, all Target stores across Canada are closing down and my heart breaks a little each time I realize this.

Target is my favourite place to be.  Seriously.  I went there today and bought waaaay more than I should have, but I have this theory that maybe if I spend  a lot of my money there, they will decide to stay and I'll be a happy Jubes once again.  I know this won't actually happen, but a girl can dream can't she?!

On behalf of my breaking heart, I decided to write them a farewell/love letter.  May we meet again, oh sweet one.

Dear Target,

Please don't leave me.  We have been such great friends since the very beginning and I was excited to see where this new friendship would bring us.  Alas this is not true.  Instead of filling my heart and closet with your beautiful glorious things, my hands are suddenly left dry and bare.  Although my wallet will thank you, I am left with a bitter taste in my mouth that wants you to stay.  Just for me.

And as the New Kids on the Block once said: Please, don't go giiirl!

I am sending my love in hopes that we will meet again sometime soon.

Your friend,

Jubes xo

CHOICES

Guess what?  My sister had come to see me at work - face aglow - and I could tell she had something exciting to say.  I stopped what I was doing and gave her my full attention.  Well you look happy!  I'm all out of guesses, just tell me!  I'm not a very good guesser.  Clearly.

She told me about a house she had just viewed and absolutely loved - she's been living with us since August, so you can only imagine how excited she would be to finally find a place suitable for her and her daughter!  How great!  When do you know if you got it? I asked,  She looked up at me and replied, Well I'm emailing her right now to give it to me, so soon...Hopefully.  I couldn't help but let out a little laugh.  That's my sister for you.

Once she was done she looked back at me appealingly.  I could tell she had something more to say.  And I knew it was something to do with me.  What is it I asked, unsure of what was coming next.  She let it all out, I was surprised she even kept it in at all, Welllll, you know how Jen and I went for that walk today...her sister is getting married, but they're on a budget.  It's near Victoria so they will even pay for a hotel!  I looked at her.  Slack-jawed.  I couldn't believe it.  A possible first wedding!  Buuuut...  OhNo.  This can't be good.  What is it I asked, defeated.  It's on May Long Weekend.  The same day as Auntie Cheryl's funeral.

My jaw slapped shut.  My shoulders slumped.  And I closed my eyes.  My Auntie passed away a couple of weeks ago from a long battle with breast cancer,  They live up north so they were planning on holding another service for family and friends in the Shuswap in May so everyone could get together and celebrate her life.  I know as a business owner I would have to miss out on certain things because of it, but never did I think it would happen so soon.  It really makes you appreciate the little things that much more.

I believe in fate.  But I also believe we choose it as well.  The universe steers us towards our destined path and gives us new opportunities, but it's up to us to either choose the hard way to make it happen or the easy way out.  I just hope I choose the right one.